Sorry, Folks!

My goodness, it has been a long time since I wrote anything... at all. No journaling, no blogging, barely any emailing... ok, I have been writing thank you notes like a crazy woman. But that hardly counts.

I think I have been ashamed to write that things on the weight-loss front have not been going so well. I have maintained about 169 pounds for the last 3 weeks. I haven't gained any which is awesome, but also means I haven't lost any. I have been working out 4 days a week, 45 minutes a day with my trainer - three days of running intervals around the neighborhood and one day of all weights. So it's not like I have been laying around the apartment. However, I am regressing when it comes to my diet. When I get stressed, I eat. And with ONE MONTH til the wedding, stress is running high.

This weekend I went over to Kennewick for a bridal shower thrown by a bunch of women at my mom's church. I didn't eat the cake at the shower (which my Safeway Bakery working sister tells me is 2000 calories a slice) but this weekend I did eat Lobster Pappardella, Cheeseburger Sliders, Pork Wanton Tacos, Artichoke Dip with Chips, Ahi Tuna, French Silk Pie, homemade Pizza, Blueberry Tom Collins, and a couple salads. The only thing remotely healthy about this list was the fat-free Italian dressing I had on both salads. Ok, the tuna was pretty healthy, too. But still. In general I have been taking weekends "off" and eating basically whatever I want within reason. But this weekend was a total splurge.

So my diet is the reason I haven't lost any more weight.

(To top it off, I am now sick! I didn't work out yesterday and won't again today because my head is blown up like a balloon with only a small leak through ONE of my nostrils. Let me tell you though, there is one item my sister gave me that I wish I had been using as a decongestant for every single cold in my past! I can actually sleep, breath, and stay sane now that I have found my new best friend, Nasal Spray.)

I have been getting a little more comfortable in my own skin I think. It gets to the point where it feels like living a normal life (which includes eating in restaurants, drinking occasionally, and not working out more than three days a week) means I will always be a little bit overweight. So I resign myself to accept. It feels pretty healthy to accept myself, but also feels like I am giving up.

Until I find an activity that I enjoy doing on a daily basis, and have less of an emotional attachment to food, I don't think I will have that athletic body I dream of. But I AM going to strive to reach those goals. Maybe just not in time for the wedding

WHICH IS ONE MONTH FROM TOMORROW! Holy cow - these last 7 months have gone by ridiculously fast.
I feel like there is a hidden list of things I have forgotten to do. But I don't think there is.

Right now we are in the process of booking a honeymoon. In the beginning we decided not to take a honeymoon in order to save money in case we have to move. But now we realize that we need a vacation!! We are thinking either Kauai, Hawaii or Cancun, Mexico....

Nothing new on Ian's job search. It's getting down to the wire, but I still have faith that something good is out there for us.

Now, sick at work, I am just trying to get through the day. Instead of working out or going back to bed once I get home, I get to take Lola SpecialDark to the vet. She has had nastiness coming out both ends since Thursday. It's lovely to wake up to. Poor baby!

Wish us sickies luck.